Merciless

Have you ever wondered?
How often have you tried?
No one can know
What burns me up inside.

It eats at my soul,
It tears at my limbs;
But you can't ever know
What pain this to me brings.

My wings stretch--
I strain for the sky;
But I'm bound here to this Earth
And I always wonder why.

I dream my way through
This short life I live--
Blindly going,
Ever slowing,
Never knowing.

Blind and deaf am I.

Nothing can I feel.

Don't you know
It's killing me inside?

I feel the end--
It's e'er beyond my reach;
That dream I ever grasp--
Falling softly at my feet.

I cannot feel,
I cannot know
My feelings, vague,
As glass on snow.

How did I come to be like this?
Quiet,
Desolate,
Bleak,
Hiding in the brambles
Of masks and subterfuge?

Only blood will set me free--
Both mine and His,
But when that day
Comes flying to me
What end will there I see?

Why do they laugh at me?
My fear,
My dread?
They don't understand!
They don't see what I see!
They don't know what I know!

They feel what I do not...

And what I feel inside
Is slowly killing me.